I'm am so unbelievably dumbfounded, shocked, scared, regretful, depressed...the list goes on. Last summer I hooked up with a friend. We practiced safe sex, but then a few days later I noticed some bumps on my genitals and my clitoris was on fire. Not realizing what it was I went on vacation and made the situation worse by swimming in a lake. I ended up in a hospital with 'Dr. Granola' telling me that I had genital herpes. I couldn't believe it. It was the worst day of my life, and I refused to believe it. When I got home I went to my own doctor and begged for blood testing. He managed to convince the lab that it was imperative that my blood be tested for HSV-2. The test results came back negative for HSV-2 (genital herpes) but it came back positive for HSV-1 (the cold sore version). I was never so happy in my life, and I continued living my life as if nothing had changed. I didn't have genital herpes...life was good. So why am I here?? Well, it's been a while since I 'hooked-up' with anyone as my last experience left me really frightened...so I do what any other randy gal will do...I masterbate. And I've done so several times before with nothing happening...until recently. It seems that every time I masterbate my clitoris becomes very angry and swells into a herpes infection. Now how can this be?? I tested negative for the HSV-2 virus, but I'm now experiencing herpes infections. My doctor said that the HSV-1 virus will show up wherever it first presented itself...wonderful! And here is the kicker...I was put on Valtrex and it lessoned the blister on my clitoris, but because I'm so sick to my stomach and stressed out it hasn't gone away. I don't know how to calm myself down or what to do. I just feel sick and ashamed. Has anyone else experience this type of breakout?